One more chapter ends..

10 days more and then i will bid adieu to my college..My college ends..
Its a strange feeling .i feel someone special who mattered a lot in my life is going away forever and the most wierd part is that its not any person. The cause of all my distress is that my colg is cming to an end.it is such a simple thing tat was bound to happen sumday or the other. it happens wid evryone.Nothing special but why am i feelin so uncomfortable ?..
i m nt abl to digest this simple fact.this is bugging me..i never thought tat my colg lyf wll hav such an impact on me.A sense of insecurity , an uncertainity is brewing up deep inside me..my colg friends and the time spent there was the remedy for all my worries..Whenever i used to feel low,i wuld find solace in my colg ,in my friends' senseless chatter...Time spent sitting on steps near my classroom doing nothing wuld instantly pep up my mood...it was sumthing i alwayz luked fwd to.There was this assurance that i wll be back at the same place after the vacations,back in the same atmosphere wid ppl. who r lyk me but nowwhen i wll gve exams this yr,i dont knw where wll i land up aftr vacations nd with whom..i wlll hav to start frm the scratch again..a new beginning again.
When i had to bid farewell to my school, i was not scared of leaving ,infact i thnk i shuld hav been at tat time coz it was a kind of transition that i was going to make then..A transition frOm the protected environs of school to an unventured territory named COLLEGE,a place where u hav to survive on ur own, hav to create ur own distinct identity but i took things as they turned up and was pretty fine with it..i was sure that i wll be here only nd wll be in touch with everyone .
But today, i m nt assured at all..it seems that if i leave today frm here then i wll leave forever nd nothing wll b left, no matter hw much i try.m becoming pessimistic nw aftr being an optimistic all my lyf.this phase is vry strange..i wish it ends soon..